I miss Brighton so fucking much.

it feels so weird after i came back to Hong Kong. i don’t feel fit in at all. and strangely, when i was waiting for the ferry to go home, i wanted to cry. i don’t know exactly why – but i think when i looked up at the sky, i saw cloudy and grey sky. not the baby blue and clear sky anymore. and i felt really sad. i really miss Brighton and Sussex and i don’t know, i don’t really wanna live or stay there it’s just … it feels like paradise to me, Brighton. there was no trouble, just beautiful environment, beautiful architectures, beautiful people, good food … feels like a dream, a dream that i don’t wanna wake up. i feel so not used to the way people are doing things here, which is also strange to me because i’ve been living in HK for more than 10 years and i’ve only been to Brighton for a month and i kind of felt connected with the life style in Brighton more than in HK!! how peculiar is that!! i really feel like the way people carry themselves in the UK is what i belong to! seriously! and surprisingly for me! i just … i don’t know what to say. i miss the UK. i feel creative and energetic and want to do things there! you know! that’s how i feel! and now im back in HK, though it’s home, i feel so lost and trapped. i don’t wanna feel like this but i do feel like this!! and i don’t like it! it’s such an irony that the first week i went to the UK and i remember i wrote in my tumblr that i missed HK very much and that no place like home … and i though i still agree that no place like homw in the HK, i miss the UK tremendously! Ughhh it just feel strange and it’s really hard to talk about it or write about it. no one will really understand that except for those who went there with me and been through the whole month in Brighton with me. they might understand. 

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